Writer, yes or no?

When I sit down to write a blog I never know what will come out. I normally have an idea in my head but I just let my fingers find what they will on the keyboard. It's very therapeutic but also a little scary because I'm never sure what secret feelings will come out.


I never thought of myself as a writer. Growing up I was the worse speller on the face of the planet. Technically I still am I just have the saving grace of spellchecker. I always could knock out papers in a couple of hours because the words just flowed from my head to the keyboard without really a thought to them. But I would have never considered myself a writer. In fact I hated writing. I loathed having to sit down and concentrate on something for that long of time. 

This is why when I started writing my screenplay I shocked myself. I could sit and write for hours without realizing that time had passed. The thoughts and ideas just came from nowhere. Still I never thought I was a writer. 

I never thought anyone would actually want to read what I wrote. It's all just jumbled thoughts that I somehow get out in a manner that makes sense. But the longer I have had this blog the more I realize that I may just be a writer. Granted a very amateur writer but a writer non the less. 

I can express myself so much better through my writing than I can by speaking. This is why I would never be an actress. I don't think that my writings on this blog mean much more than a therapy session for me but I am coming to realize that my words mean something to other people. It took several people telling me this repeatedly for me to understand it (it's still hard for me to completely wrap my head around). I am a simple girl from Arkansas who's ideals and thoughts are no different from anyone else. 

I set out on this path in life to have the opportunity to make something that means something to someone. I want to impact someone else's life like the TV shows and movies of my life have me. Maybe I'll never make a movie, maybe my words will never reach the screen, maybe "the beauty is in the attempt." It's something that I am going to fight for until the bitter end. It's something that I will never give up on. But if through my attempt and this blog I can reach someone else and make a small impact on their life then I will feel good about the choice that I made. 

Maybe I am a writer after all. Or maybe I am just starting to discover who I really am. The possibilities are endless.

7 comments:

Amber Rae March 27, 2009 at 2:21 AM  

Honestly...your writing gets better and better every time you put up a new post.

Never ceases to amaze. Telling a secret is one thing, accepting it is another.

I think that your writing is well done. "Words are just words." It's funny how that phrase is said a lot, but everything is a word. Love, passion, writing, crying...literally everything. It's the meaning OF the word that is the truth. You chose your meanings well :)

~A

¤¤Marion¤¤ March 27, 2009 at 3:59 AM  

You're definitly a writer Kim . Your writing is so good and I can say to you that your post about what defines a person was really inspiring and changed me in some ways :)

You have the talent , you have the skill , you have the passion , the courage , the will well you have everything to make it real ! And I hope you'll get your script done because you deserve it and your script I'm sure worth it .

Just Keep writing because I enjoy coming on your blog everyday and seeing a new ( or more ;) ) post done and it always bring something to me ...

Well to sum it up .. Thanks Kim

Anonymous March 27, 2009 at 4:29 AM  

"If when you wake up in the morning and you can think of nothing but writing, then you’re a writer. "

That quote came to mind while I was reading your blog.

Embrace your journey to self-discovery and you (and your writing) will go from strength to strength! And considering how good you already are, you'll be at the top of your game in no time!

One last thing, your words may not YET have reached the masses, but you have already made an impact via this blog!

-Astrid

Anonymous March 27, 2009 at 1:04 PM  

Yes Kim you are a writer. :)
A writer could be many things - in some ways I think we all are writers...

~Robin

JaclyneJaye March 27, 2009 at 2:36 PM  

You are true to what you do and love. From what Ive read you're passionate and honest, and have the drive. You are a most excellent writer Kim!

Stargazer March 27, 2009 at 5:29 PM  

You're on your way Kim! We're all here to stand beside you in your efforts.

I believe that you've already made an impact on people's lives ... if even by your kind words (thank you for them)! You've lifted all of our spirits at one time or another and we appreciate you!

Smiles,
Angie

Karen March 28, 2009 at 1:07 AM  

Your blog encourage me. As you share bits and pieces of your creative journey I am inspired by your openness and willingness to embrace whatever path comes your way. Wishing you all the best!!!

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I'm a 24 year old girl who is taking a change in direction and going to school online through Full Sail University seeking a bachelors in Entertainment Business. I'm working towards being a screenwriter/producer/director anywhere in the TV or Film industry.