Post #100.
Wow. I never thought I would have enough to say to fill up 50 posts. But here I am, 2 days shy of 3 months after starting this blog and I am writing my 100th post.
A lot has changed during this time and it boggles my mind that we are now 4 months into 2009. I feel like New Years was just last week. But as they say, time flies. I am in school, with a job, and planning on moving by September. All three of these things weren't there when I started this. Neither was my "completed" screenplay, my love of photography, my new desire to learn every aspect of the industry.
I have learned so much about myself and the world in 3 months. I have met people from all around the world that I would call my good friends. I have found a place of comfort and inspiration. I have found myself. (However I may have lost my ability to sleep, as witnessed by a 6 AM post after a night of not sleeping)
A year ago I was frantically working towards opening day at a brand new baseball park. I was pouring myself into the job and getting very little out of it. I was content. But then the season ended and I was without a job to pour myself in. I had to focus on me again and that is not a healthy thing for me to do. I reevaluated what I wanted to do with my life.
After taking some time to myself I enrolled in school and started looking for a job. Little did I know that I would find not only a job but a job that I like in an area that I'm interested in. I don't have to pour myself into this job because it is just a natural part of me. It's a connection of who I am.
So who am I. I am a writer, a photographer, a music lover, a TV show fanatic, a loner, a friend, a animal lover, a visionary, a dreamer, a musician, a collector, a smart ass. I care, want, dream, love, see, do, play, write, sing, dance (not very well), interact, learn, grow. I am not defined by a single word, and I don't fit into a specific category. I am Kim.
Everyone is different, just like finger prints no two are ever the same. But our differences can bring us together. I have formed solid bonds with people I have met through SGP. Bonds that will not easily be broken. I have found a comfort within the pages of their blog. Not just from their inspiring words or the fact that they are accomplishing exactly what I wish to accomplish, but from the countless others who stick around this little engine that could company. Thank you to everyone there, Team and Street Team. Each of you has inspired me in countless ways on a daily basis.
3 years ago I was in Orlando, FL hiding from my past. Little did I know that one day training on a nut wagon (yes the cinnamon almonds) I would meet my best friend. She broke down every wall that I had built up in my past. She got me to heal and move forward. Without her I would still be a half person, shutting out the world. I also would have never pursued this dream of mine if it weren't for her. She is my cheering squad. Whenever I doubt anything she is there to pick me up. Even though we don't live in the same time zone, we still are always there for each other and I wouldn't trade her for the world. So thank you Lindsay A. You are my rock.
My family has always been a big part of my life. I have always considered my mom a friend. We might not always get along and we would never be able to live in the same house again but she is someone that I know I can talk to. My dad is a rock. He is the quiet type but what he can't say in words he makes up for just by being there. My sister and I weren't always the best of friends growing up. But in college I got to connect with my sister. It made going to UCA worth it. I love my sister and want only the best things in life for her. She is more than just a sister to me. She is a friend. I will miss her and the rest of my family when I move but I know they will all be huge parts of my life no matter where I am or what I'm doing.
I haven't had an easy life, I haven't had a hard life. I've had a life. My life is changing as I write this because my future is changing. I am heading in a new direction and blazing my own trail. The obstacles I faced in the past have only made me strong today. I wouldn't be me without them so I don't regret any of them. I actually thank them for leading me here. I know more are coming and the rest of my life is not going to be a piece of cake but if I can face down all that I have, I know that nothing can stop me in the future.
In 2 months and 5 days I turn 24. In 5 months I could be in a new state. In a year I could be making my movie. In 5 years I could have the career I am dreaming of. Or it could all end tomorrow. My faith will pull me through my future. It will help me everyday of the rest of my life. I know that I have helped others, that what I do and say and write have made a small difference in someone else's life.
I am humbled by your comments. I am pleased that you read. I am in awe of the power of words.
My life is just beginning and this is my journal. I do have a lot to say. I will continue to write here as long as people continue to read (and probably beyond) because I have never felt better than I do when I finally get all of my inner thoughts out of my head.
Thank you all and get ready for 100 more posts.
