I told myself I wouldn't blog when I was upset. That I wouldn't blog when I was emotional and things just spill out. But lately all I am is upset and emotional so it seems like I have no choice but to do it. I am moving in 2 weeks and the farewell tour to things in NWA officially kicked off tonight. I've been preparing myself for months for this but the feelings have never been more real. I received my copy of my lease to sign today, I got my car ready to drive to NC and I went to my last Friday night baseball game. Friday nights are the best nights at the ballpark. Fireworks, fun, baseball, friends. Who can beat that? I'm going to miss that and so many other things.
On top of moving, finding a job, enjoying time here, figuring out what the heck I'm going to do there, packing, storing, organizing, I have had to face the end of working at the TV station. This wouldn't be such a big deal if they weren't going through a huge transition bring up the station in Fort Smith and all the equipment that comes with it. It's cool to be able to learn how to block shots and set lights but I feel bad that I won't be there to help after it all gets done. I feel like I'm wasting everyones time by learning it and then leaving. I know I can't change this but I have a fear of letting people down and I feel like I am doing it in this instance.
I want to apologize in advance for any random outburst I may lay on people in the next couple weeks. I am a stressed out emotional wreck and will be until I get settled in my new apartment.
