I wanted to share this story that my news station did tonight after the Grey's Anatomy season finale. I am glad that we were able to use something to help save a life later on.
Random Trips Down Memory Lane
While packing up the contents of my room and preparing for the garage sale that I put off to next weekend I have been having random trips down memory lane. Random items or groups of items have brought back some wonderful/not so wonderful memories.
This all started right before I left for my trip to Wilmington. In a rush to find a printer cable at my parents house I came across an old coke bottle piggy bank that I had when I was younger (ok so it was my sisters and I stole it from her but whatever) full of notes from high school and junior high. Now I had to get them out and read them so I put them all in a ziplock bag and packed them in my carry on bag in hopes that I would read them on the plane. This goal did not happen and it wasn't until I had come back home and was trying to fall asleep one night that I was brave enough to open them.
You can tell a lot about who you were by the notes you received in the past. The ones that were particularly hard to read were from my ex-boyfriend. But I powered through and read them all and it actually brought some peace to the situation. I am not the same person I was then and neither is he. We probably wouldn't have made it this long had we stayed together but at the time I thought we would last forever. The notes did inspire a new story concept which was pretty cool. They also were embarrassing, childish and funny to read. I will be keeping them for my children to read one day and say look at what mom was like when she was your age.
Stuffed animals, cards, letters, ticket stubs, random trinkets. They are all little keys to our past. It is sometimes difficult for me to part with these items that meant enough to me at the time to keep them. In fact I was forced to clean out the boxes for the garage sale in preparation to move (luckily my parents have lots of my baby stuff stored away). The people who buy these things won't know the stories of how they got to me or the impact they made on me at the time or even now. But they will make new memories with new people and that's all that matters.
I have a strong desire to go to my parents house this weekend and pull out all the old baby photo albums and pour through them before I leave. I'm going to miss the people and the memories that random things remind me of around here but I am ready to make new memories in my new place.
Just call me a sheep because I'm following the crowd.
100 Random Things About Me
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? I have a scar on the top of my head from when a street sign fell on my head.
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? right now movie posters, pictures and a bulletin board, in the next couple weeks nothing as I pack it all up.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? I'm told I occasionally snore and talk but I don't believe them as I have never heard myself do either.
4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? if you ever got a hold of my iPod you would find a little of everything and all in complete random mixes.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? not the exact time but it was after 10 pm because that is the time that my mother threatened to walk out of the hospital at if I wasn't born yet.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? to be done with the build up and moved already.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? playing 4 square like I did in elementary school and middle school. I kicked ass at 4 square.
8. HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT ABOUT GETTING YOUR NOSE PIERCED? No because I thought it would constantly feel like I had a booger in my nose and that is not a feeling I enjoy.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5'9"
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? yes, one time when I was spending the night at a friends house they thought it would be funny to lock me in a closet, I had a full blown panic attack and they almost had to take me to the hospital.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? not as much as I used to, but I still turn on a light if it is available.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? person in real life, Lindsay, thing, OTH on Monday.
13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR? not making my mark on the world.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? dark hair and green eyes.
15. WHAT DOES YOUR HAIR LOOK LIKE RIGHT NOW? tangled ponytail, was straight earlier
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? Both, especially lately
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? Sausage
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Special K cereal bar in my purse.
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME? Blue.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? cracker yes, fish fish no.
21. HAVE YOU EVER SEEN YOUR BEST FRIEND NAKED? Ummm not that my brain remembers
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?? Yes and have had for sometime now.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? No and that looks like it hurts.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Old Navy
25. WAS MIDDLE SCHOOL A BAD EXPERIENCE FOR YOU? awkward but good.
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? Yes, 3 that are mine 2 dogs and a cat and 2 that are part mine 1 dog and 1 cat
27. WHAT KIND IS IT? see answer above
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? yes and I have before
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 32
31. HAS ANYONE EVER BROKEN A PROMISE THEY MADE TO YOU? Yes several major ones
32. WHO IS YOUR LAST TEXT MESSAGE FROM? Amber
33. FAVORITE PLACE? driving down the road, anywhere
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA? Yes
35. WHAT IS THE STUPIDEST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE WITH YOUR CELL PHONE? Sent drunkin text messages to an ex-boyfriend when he is married.
36. WHO HAS THE SAME BIRTHDAY AS YOU? No one that I know of, but I never really checked.
37. FIRST JOB? Aquatic park concession stand. Got paid in cash and got to swim for free. AWESOME JOB!
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? Can anyone honestly answer this question no? Did one less than a week ago.
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE? Yes but I don't think it has to be a romantic connection, plenty of my best friends have been my soulmates on many different levels.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? catching up with friends that I have missed recently.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? 2 knee surgeries and 1 mouth surgery.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? I don't react well to compliments so I don't really know.
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? All of my teenage years, I have very stubborn teeth to go with my stubborn personality. In the end they still moved back to where they were.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? considering it's in like 3 weeks I should have some ideas but I really just want to spend time with my family before I leave a week later.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES? 2 1 boy - Landon 1 girl - Emma
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Not that I know of
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Egos
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKED ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL? Spending time with my friends and Friday night football games.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? Ummm I'm not sure because it depends on the day and the amount of damage to my hair.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? For the most part yes, except when I write in a hurry.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH? Quiche from Spring Street Grill.
52. ANY BAD HABITS? Too many to list.
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSOn? Only when I'm stressed and emotional
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I would hope so.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS? To a point. I have been in FWB situations and they didn't turn out well.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER? Looks attract but personality lasts.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Angry driving with the radio blaring or the occasional punch of a wall or inanimate object.
58. WHO WAS YOUR FIRST BEST FRIEND? Allison
59. DO YOU LIKE BRITNEY SPEARS? Sadly yes.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? My Teenage Muntant Ninja Turtles action figures.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? 100+ but I don't call half of them.
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID? I didn't watch him as a kid but I was forced to watch while "babysitting" so yes.
63. Do you use sarcasm? All the freaking time.
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? Mashed Potatoes
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Personality and compassion
66. WHO HAS THE SAME PHONE AS YOU? My sister, Sarah, Bartley, tons of other people.
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER? flight.
68. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW? OTH, Friends, Las Vegas, Reba oh wait just one can't pick.
69. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES? I try to avoid them or having them in general.
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Half Baked Ben and Jerry's
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? Yes but I almost cut off the top of my thumb when I was little.
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM? Yes my laptop and have had since I was like 14
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT? Softball game (if it doesn't rain) BWW, setting up for my garage sale.
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER? Near a beach somewhere.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTION? If they really want to take the time to sure.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? TV (sadly the Disney Channel)
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK? Coca-Cola (aka Coke)
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Lindsay
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? Arm muscles
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME? Spare time??? Watch movies or TV I guess because that's what I do before I sleep.
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE? I try not to hate.
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR: Late spring/early summer
83. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY? Sweettarts Chicks Bunnies and Ducks, an Easter requirement in my family.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND? Several, I have the bestest best friend too.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Brown, and when I dye it lighter brown with a hint of red or blonde.
86. EYE COLOR? Brown
87. SHOE SIZE? 9
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE? Taco Bueno
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT? Abuelo's
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? LOVE IT!
91. WHO WERE YOUR GOOD FRIENDS IN HIGH SCHOOL? Faye, Allison, Cassie, Daniel x2, Drew, Tim, Tiffany.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Christmas
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS? Guitar, Piano, Drums, Clarinet, Keyboard.
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT? Umm I've never really picked a side. I just flow in between.
95. KISSES OR HUGS? Hugs
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Relationships
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? Music on iTunes
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A STAY-AT-HOME-MOM? I will struggle with having kids let alone being with them all the time.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? No time to read but I started The Secret Life of Bees on the plane a couple weeks ago.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE. MIA recently but working on getting it back.
Sweet Silver Lining
I don't have much to say today, just to much going on to process and really write it out but I heard this song on Monday's OTH and bought it that afternoon and have fallen in love with it. It speaks so much about things that I am feeling right now. This is why Kate Voegele's songs play on repeat on my iPod.I’m going home down hearted and hoping
I’m close to some new beginning
I know there’s a reason for everything
That comes and goes
But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
Most days I try my best
To put on a brave face
But inside my bones are cold
And my heart breaks
But all the while something’s keeping me safe
And alive
But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
And I won’t give up like this
I will be given strength
Now that I’ve found it
Nothing can take that away
So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing
So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
Sweet silver lining
