Sunshine

Sun roof open, windows rolled down, music blaring.

That's how I drove around today. No destination in mind, no specific place to go, just driving.

It was the best thing I could have done. Sunny, warm, clear. The perfect day.

I went out to the White River and remembered why I love the peace and serenity of lakes and rivers. It's so quiet, calm, and relaxing. I just walked and stared at the water and everything around. 

New pics up of this on my flickr. Check them out.

I also took a drive out to the Prairie Grove Battlefield Park. When I was little I loved learning about the Civil War. I begged my parents to take me to reenactments and I loved school field trips out there. I haven't been in years and it was nice to drive around and remember the history of the area and reflect back to a time when things were totally different.

New OTH tonight and I'm so excited. I'm a little bummed that I won't be able to watch the whole thing on break but I'm going to wait and watch the recording when I get home so I can watch all of it. So excited!!!

It's a good day. Things are going to be ok.

When It Rains It Pours

It seems like every time I blog it sparks more thoughts in my head causing me to want to blog again and again and again.

I think that everyone needs a reality check sometimes. I thought that once I decided on my dream everything would just magically fall into place and my life would move like I wanted it to. Life doesn't work that way. It moves and changes in its own time. I need patience. I have none. 

People can surprise you sometimes. Friendships blossom out of unexpected places and a family can form where you least expect it. 

As I am typing this a new blog is posted on Southern Gothic Productions. I went from feeling better to feeling like I did from it. Hilarie and Austin's video put a smile on my face. Thank you for that.

Despite how my earlier post sounded I had a fairly good day. I had coed softball practice this afternoon and hit better than I have in all 23 years of my life. I was knocking balls into the outfield like no ones business. Then at work I discovered that I might have a knack for the camera operating thing because they all rely on me to set up shots and the studio. My director even said that our Sports Final was had some of the best shots he had seen. So despite my whiny posts earlier it was a good day.

I have a lot to look forward to and a lot of people to share it with. Thank you to everyone who is supporting me with this crazy dream of mine. It means so much to me.

Drive Away

Have you ever just got in your car and drove?

No destination in mind but just pointed the wheels and let the road take you where it wanted.

That's what I want to do.

I want to drive. Drive nowhere. Drive anywhere. Drive everywhere.

I want to pack a bag and leave for a couple of days.

I need to clear my head. I need to reconnect with myself. I need to let go.

Let go of the feelings that are bringing me down. I don't know what these feelings are but I know that I don't want them anymore. 

I will pull out of this. I will be the person I want to be. But for right now I just want to drive.