I Officially Have an Apartment!!!

It's as official as official can be. I signed my lease for my apartment tonight and I leave a week from Thursday for my 2 days journey to Wilmington. Day 1 will be driving from here to Atlanta then on day 2 we drive from Atlanta to Wilmington. It's all very exciting. I'm picking out furniture tomorrow to order and SOOO EXCITED! This will be the first time that I furnish a whole apartment on my own. It will be my way and what I want. YAY!

My stuff is pretty much packed and I have a pretty full week of activities with friends and family around here before my birthday on Saturday. Tomorrow is golf, Tuesday night is Brad Paisley/Sugarland concert for Wal-mart shareholders, Thursday is my last 2 softball games, Friday is birthday dinner, Saturday the big 2-4. After that it is get everything ready to hit the road days followed by being stuck in the car days and I'm officially there. 

I'm off to empty out the last of my drawers and pack up some dishes. But I will keep you as updated on the whole process as I can.

Let the Farewell Tour Begin

I told myself I wouldn't blog when I was upset. That I wouldn't blog when I was emotional and things just spill out. But lately all I am is upset and emotional so it seems like I have no choice but to do it. I am moving in 2 weeks and the farewell tour to things in NWA officially kicked off tonight. I've been preparing myself for months for this but the feelings have never been more real. I received my copy of my lease to sign today, I got my car ready to drive to NC and I went to my last Friday night baseball game. Friday nights are the best nights at the ballpark. Fireworks, fun, baseball, friends. Who can beat that? I'm going to miss that and so many other things.

On top of moving, finding a job, enjoying time here, figuring out what the heck I'm going to do there, packing, storing, organizing, I have had to face the end of working at the TV station. This wouldn't be such a big deal if they weren't going through a huge transition bring up the station in Fort Smith and all the equipment that comes with it. It's cool to be able to learn how to block shots and set lights but I feel bad that I won't be there to help after it all gets done. I feel like I'm wasting everyones time by learning it and then leaving. I know I can't change this but I have a fear of letting people down and I feel like I am doing it in this instance. 

I want to apologize in advance for any random outburst I may lay on people in the next couple weeks. I am a stressed out emotional wreck and will be until I get settled in my new apartment.

To Brighten Your Day

I know most of you who read this blog have been working very hard on various projects and because of this I wanted to post something to help brighten your day. 

Now I know it is not the Holiday season but this one makes me laugh every time.

This next one is a classic that some might just need to be reminded of.

And finally...

I hope these helped make your day a little better.

Rediscovered Music

After playing a round of who knows what song at work I came across a lot of songs that I forgot about. I wanted to share some of them with you.

Curtains Only Hide the Scared.

Even the Wizard of Oz had to come out from behind the curtain and face the world. This being said I have decided to stop hiding, to put myself out there and to make my dreams come true. I'm going to shoot for the stars, ask for the moon, and hope that I am not disappointed in the end. I have been told by many people recently that you can't get what you want if you aren't willing to ask for it. I have lived my life scared to go after what I really want and I'm tired of it. 

I will be making big changes in the next couple weeks and in honor of stepping out of my comfort zone already I might as well go all out and see what could possibly happen. I have never been more scared in my life. I get knots in my stomach just thinking about it all but good knots and good fear.

The garage sale is over and can be classified as a complete success. I sold way more than I thought I would and got to help out charity with the items I couldn't sell. I am using the money to assist in expenses I have accrued in my time here as well as a contribution to a worthy cause. It was stressful, long, and boring at points but I'm glad I put in the work to get it done and mostly that it is over with. Now onto my next big task of actually preparing to move.

I started packing today and have pretty much cleared all unnecessary items out of my room and am going to start work on the other areas later tonight and tomorrow. I want to have as much packed as possible by the end of the week because the next week will be busy and I just don't want to have that to worry about. It's bad enough that I haven't seen my lease yet and I'm supposed to have it signed by Sunday. Lots to do and time is quickly running out to get it done in.

I don't want to have to spend so much time working on my stuff here because there are other projects that I would rather be helping out with. But I know that my first responsibility right now is to my move and getting prepared for that as well as enjoying the last couple weeks that I have with my family and friends here. 

After listing out all that I need to get done it is time to put on a pot of water, make myself a cup of tea and prepare for a long night. But first I have a couple e-mails to send out about my future. Here goes nothing.