I’m close to some new beginning
I know there’s a reason for everything
That comes and goes
But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
Most days I try my best
To put on a brave face
But inside my bones are cold
And my heart breaks
But all the while something’s keeping me safe
And alive
But so many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
And I won’t give up like this
I will be given strength
Now that I’ve found it
Nothing can take that away
So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And I maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing
So many people are looking to me
To be strong and to fight
But I’m just surviving
And maybe weak but I’m never defeated
And I’ll keep believing in clouds with that sweet silver lining
Sweet silver lining
Sweet Silver Lining
I don't have much to say today, just to much going on to process and really write it out but I heard this song on Monday's OTH and bought it that afternoon and have fallen in love with it. It speaks so much about things that I am feeling right now. This is why Kate Voegele's songs play on repeat on my iPod.
Out of the loop
So I feel like I'm neglecting my duties as a friend. I am so out of the loop on current events with everyone else. It's time to stop being so wrapped up in my own life and the changes that are coming that I haven't took the time to really talk to anyone lately. Well no more. I want to know how everyone is doing. I have missed all my chat buddies. Between my vacation and the craziness that has followed since then I have been MIA and a horrible friend.
Tie me down, text me, call me whatever. I want to know how everyone is doing. I miss you all very much. My SGP family is the reason I am going for this dream and I have fallen on my duties to be a part of it. Thank you all for your continued support and I will always be here to support each of you.
It's Official!!!
The first part of making my dreams happen is that much closer. I am officially moving into an apartment in Wilmington, NC on June 12th. I was approved today and will be signing the lease in the next week or so. I am so excited. Now all I need to do is find a job to pay for the rent and I am on my way!!!!!
More Videos
Here are a couple more videos. They may just be funny to me but I wanted to share.
Driving around looking at apartments I discovered the beach randomly (that is what happens when you don't have a map or the Tom Tom). We decided that we couldn't pass up the opportunity to get out and walk a little while.
After sitting around trying to figure out what we were going to do to kill some time we decided that we would go to the batting cages we passed on our way to the beach. Now I play softball every week but Lindsay has never played so this was an adventure.
This one is our recounting the story of the night we meet Hilarie in the bar. I have told this story so many times but this is the best retelling of it so far. Obviously we have 2 different tellings of the stories based on perspectives but this is our collaboration.
An Ode To Mothers
In honor of mothers day I have been reflecting on my mother.
I have been fortunate enough to have an amazing mother. She has been my biggest supporter, friend, caretaker, my everything. She has always supported my wild ideas, change in dreams, and everything in between. Even during my rebellious teenage years (actually I was 19 almost 20 and it lasted all of a summer) she stuck by me and helped me any way she could. We are a lot alike, have similar views of the world and can talk about pretty much anything. She is part of the reason that I am so sad to leave home next month.
As I am sitting here the sounds of an off key, struggling to learn trumpet player are floating in through my window. Oh man do I remember those days. First when my sister was just learning to play the clarinet and then again when I decided to play the drums. If you were to ask her I don't think she could tell you that either was worse but I am sure it's easier to tune out a quieter clarinet than a pounding drum. But she endured it all, from piano lessons to practicing songs for a performance, to the repeated bangs of the drum. It couldn't have been easy but she did it. All while toting us from basketball practices, softball practices, sleep overs, birthday parties, movie theaters, roller skating rinks, you name it we did it growing up.
We didn't miss out on many opportunities growing up either. If it was something we wanted to do, something we needed to do, or something that we wanted we did it, got it or saw it. My parents made sure we had every opportunity. From the vacations that they never went on when they were little, to sports camps, we had the opportunity to do it. They even went as far as to get us pets knowing that when we left home they would stay behind (they still have my first cat Sweetie, and recently took in my 2 dogs Scooter and Alex).
My mother and for that matter my father are the best parents I could have ever asked for. So on this Mothers Day take the opportunity to look at your own mother and what she has meant to you in your own life.
Happy Mothers Day Mom. I love you!
