Random Drives are the Best!

I've been feeling blocked lately. It may have something to do with the enormous amount of time that I have had to spend working on school work or it could be that I haven't really been inspired to write lately. So to get the creative juices flowing I decided to take a little drive this afternoon. I didn't really drive to go anywhere specific just to turn up the music, let my brain wander and get out of the hole I've been in for the last couple of days.

Nothing is better than setting the cruise control, singing at the top of your lungs and just letting it all go. I just let my mind wander where it wanted. I actually will say that about the time I hit Fort Smith and the sun peaked out of the clouds I actually started coming up with some good ideas again and I feel the energy and inspiration I felt a couple weeks ago. I think that I might actually get somewhere on my newest script now.

Now I probably wasn't the safest driver at 80 mph taking random pictures of the things that I saw or the views that inspired something in me but I didn't wreck and I didn't cause anyone else to wreck. There is a point when you are coming back into NWA and you top the hill before you reach Fayetteville that is one of my favorite views on I-540. You can see all of the U of A on the hill and at night the lights make it spectacular. When I was going to school in Conway this was my favorite part because it meant that I was home again. Seeing that view today, it felt just like it did back then. I wasn't even gone for more than 2 hours but yet again I had this feeling that I was home again and nothing beats that feeling.

I GOT A JOB!

So I have come to realize that everything happens for a reason and if you hold on long enough good things will eventually happen for you. After 4 long months of looking for a job I finally have one. This is great not only for the income but also to get me out of the house back into the real world.

I have always wanted to not work and be able to do what I want all day everyday but as soon as I got it I wanted to be working again. Talk about boring. When you have nothing to do all the time you find nothing to do.

I will be starting work at 40/29 news a week from today working on the 5, 6, and 10 o'clock broadcasts. It's not a high paying or the most glamorous job but it's a job and it's a start. I could not be happier.

Cross your fingers...

Have you ever been on a job interview and they tell you about the job and everything that you could be doing and you know it is exactly the job you want. I had one of those today. Now the only question is will I actually get the job. Sure I need the money and sure I need something else to do with my time but I think the best part of it is that it is the start of what I want to do. 

I always knew that to get into the TV/Film industry I would need to start at the bottom and learn and move from there and this is the beginning of that, if I get the job. It is just a part time camera operators position at one of the local TV stations but it is a start at learning about how things work and operate on sets. 

This job is not glamorous or even credited but I loved everything that this guy described. I knew when I stepped into the door of the control room that this is the place I want to be. Seeing the cameras and the sound equipment and everything made my hopes get higher and higher. Now all it comes down to is waiting until Friday to find out if I got it or not. Sure he said all he needed to do was check my references but I have been on several job interviews over the last 4 months of unemployment and I'm trying not to get my hopes up to high. In this economy there are so many people looking for jobs that it is hard to find an entry level position.

So I love my school but it is a lot of work. Not to mention it is bringing back all of this old math and science that I haven't thought about in years and am having a hard time remembering. Luckily I think it is slowly starting to sink in again and I'm grasping the material somewhat well. Good thing I love reading.

I have never felt more in control of my life than I do right now. It could all fall apart but for right now I feel like my life is following the path I have always wanted it to and I'm headed to where I want to go. How ever long it takes or the trials that may come along the way will be worth it because I can feel that this is what I was put on this earth to do. I just have to make the most of it and make it happen.

Good Day, Good Day

So it has been a fairly good day. I officially started school today and could not be more excited about it. I have never wanted to try so hard to accomplish something in my entire life. It's new, it's exciting, and it's everything that I have been working towards for a long time now. I can't wait for the pieces of the puzzle that is life to fall into place and to see where this dream can take me. 

Other good news of the day was that I have a job interview tomorrow. I'm so excited. Hopefully this one will turn out with a job because it is a start in the right direction for my future career. Sure it's only part time operating cameras and teleprompters for the 40/29 news but I will be getting real experience in a on set environment. As long as I don't botch the interview I feel like I might actually have a shot at this one.

I think I have finally found the right pieces to fit together to finally get me through school. This is the kind of school that I should have started out with. Then who knows where I would be right now. The program is fast and challenging and changes often to keep my interest peeked. I don't do well in the typical college setting because I get tired of learning the same thing everyday for 3-4 months. This is a new class or couple of classes a month. Every 4 weeks I get to change and move onto something new. Not to mention that it is online so I can go anywhere and move on with my career plan now while working on my degree. It's the best of both worlds. To bad it took me 6 years to figure it out.

Now if I can just make some money, pay off old debts, and save up enough money to get started either out west or east I'm going to move and make this dream of mine a reality. I don't know when or where this is going to happen but I feel that one day the fates will shine down on me and it will all work out. And if in the meantime I get to work through somethings creatively before I ever get anywhere then I will be a happy person.

I see my favorite TV shows and the actors and the crews involved and I think to myself one day I'm going to do that. One day I'm going to be involved in something that makes someone else feel the same things that I do when I watch them. I'm going to make this happen or I'm going to go down trying. 

I'm out of shape...

Today was the start of my new get in shape way of life. I don't want to call it a program or a diet because those sound so restricting. I like the freedom of doing what I want and not being tied down to a certain thing. That is why I'm going to gradually change my way of life to make it healthier. 

Try #1 was basketball. Now I haven't really played in over 5 years and I definitely have shot a ball in about 2. I was horrible. 95% of my shots were either air balls or complete bricks. I think I ran around more chasing the ball than I did actually playing. It took me a while to even make a layup. Hopefully as I play more my shot will come back. If not it's not like I'm trying to make a team or anything just be able to play for fun and not make a complete fool of myself.

Try #2 was a walk with Baxter (the dog) and my sister. Now I've been walking the dog for a couple weeks now and I think that walking is the best form of exercise to slowly work your way back into something. It can be as fast or as slow as you want it and you can change what you see of areas you walk around everyday.

School starts tomorrow and I'm really actually very excited. I got my new MacBook Pro yesterday and it might be the best computer I've ever had. I don't think I will ever go back from Mac's. I can't wait to start learning about this industry that I'm trying to break into. For the first time since I graduated high school I feel like I'm actually going somewhere with my life. Like I'm finally on the path that I want to be on. The one that will make me the happiest. Now if I could just find a job and start making some money I would be so much better off.