My Horoscope for the Day

"Dazzle everyone with your compassion, creativity and desire to do something unique. You will impress the people who can influence your life and in turn get the introductions you need to reach your goals."

This is my horoscope that my best friend Lindsay sent me today. It seemed appropriate in light of everything going on.

Making my day a little brighter

Ok so this has nothing to do with me but I rewatched this episode tonight and I wanted to share a scene that brought a smile to my face. I just wish that I could dance like this.

It's the little things in life that make your day a little brighter. 

Decisions to be made.

Tough choices ahead. Life changing decisions to be made. And for once in my life I'm completely at easy and calm about all of it.

Whichever way I choose. Whichever decision I make, it's all going to be OK.

I'm moving forward in my life, and no matter which direction I choose to go I'm heading towards my dream. If I could I would follow both paths but right now I don't see that as an option. I must decide which way to go and I must do it soon.

I have so many details to work out, so many things to figure out but it's all going to be OK.

It's been a crazy past couple of days. Working crazy hours at work and sleeping the rest of the time. But all in all it couldn't have gone better. Made it through all the shifts, learned a lot more about how things work around the station and made a few friends. 

20 days until my vacation and I can not wait!!!! I'm so excited to go and figure out more details on what is going to happen in the next few months. Just got to find a hotel and plan out what I'm going to do while I'm there. Any suggestions are greatly appreciated. 

Happy

Oh to live your dream. To have the life that you want. 

But would that be enough. At what point are you going to be happy?

There are so many things that I want out of my life. I want to move, I want my dream job, I want love, I want my family, etc. But if I get all of these things is that going to be enough. Why isn't enough right now?

I have a good life, actually a great life. I have a job that I love and challenges me. I have an amazing family that loves and supports me. I have wonderful friends who are always there. So why isn't it enough?

Why do we look at others and see the things we wish we had? Our lives are our own. We can only have what we have. We can strive for more and hope and dream and wish but in the end it is just our own life. 

Can we ever have it all or do we now and we are just to blind to see it?

I've been so focused on my future and what I want out of it that I haven't taken the time to appreciate what I have. I will be moving in a couple months and I will be following my dreams. This has already been determined. But until that time my life is here and now.

My present is in Springdale, AR. My future is in Wilmington and beyond. I can dream of the days when my present is there. I can plan and work towards them but I can't forget about where I am right now, my home.

Appreciate what you have, want what you want, dream what you dream but don't lose sight of the glory of the day, the smile of a friend, the hug from a loved one, the beauty of a sunrise, the thrill of a first kiss, the excitement of the unknown, and the reason that you are here, to live this one life to the fullest, to make the most out of everyday, and to live.

Doubt

Doubt - 1. fear, 2. to be in doubt about, 3a. to lack confidence in, b. to consider unlikely.

We all have doubts. It's a natural part of life. But it's how we deal with doubt that sets us apart.

Seeds of doubt have always plagued my mind. I'm not smart enough, not pretty enough, not talented enough, just plain not good enough. Sometimes these feelings overwhelm me (mostly when I haven't slept) and I don't know what I'm doing or how I ever got here.

It is in these times that I typically disconnect myself, draw back into my shell and try to hide this from the world. The problem with this is that it makes these feelings only stronger and more powerful. So what do you do then to overcome these feelings of doubt.

Hope - 1. to cherish a desire with anticipation, 2. trust.

Trust - 1 assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something, 2. dependence on something future or contingent: hope

Faith - fidelity to one's promises

These three things will push through those doubts. Believe in yourself, hope that tomorrow will bring less doubts, trust that it will, and have faith that everything will work out in the end. 

I have had my fair share of doubts (some tonight leading to this post). I will continue to have doubts for the rest of my life. The key is to squash these doubts and believe in myself and my dreams. 

“Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt” - William Shakespeare

“Doubt yourself and you doubt everything you see. Judge yourself and you see judges everywhere. But if you listen to the sound of your own voice, you can rise above doubt and judgment. And you can see forever.” - Nancy Lopez