Post #100!

Post #100. 

Wow. I never thought I would have enough to say to fill up 50 posts. But here I am, 2 days shy of 3 months after starting this blog and I am writing my 100th post.

A lot has changed during this time and it boggles my mind that we are now 4 months into 2009. I feel like New Years was just last week. But as they say, time flies. I am in school, with a job, and planning on moving by September. All three of these things weren't there when I started this. Neither was my "completed" screenplay, my love of photography, my new desire to learn every aspect of the industry. 

I have learned so much about myself and the world in 3 months. I have met people from all around the world that I would call my good friends. I have found a place of comfort and inspiration. I have found myself. (However I may have lost my ability to sleep, as witnessed by a 6 AM post after a night of not sleeping)

A year ago I was frantically working towards opening day at a brand new baseball park. I was pouring myself into the job and getting very little out of it. I was content. But then the season ended and I was without a job to pour myself in. I had to focus on me again and that is not a healthy thing for me to do. I reevaluated what I wanted to do with my life. 

After taking some time to myself I enrolled in school and started looking for a job. Little did I know that I would find not only a job but a job that I like in an area that I'm interested in. I don't have to pour myself into this job because it is just a natural part of me. It's a connection of who I am.

So who am I. I am a writer, a photographer, a music lover, a TV show fanatic, a loner, a friend, a animal lover, a visionary, a dreamer, a musician, a collector, a smart ass. I care, want, dream, love, see, do, play, write, sing, dance (not very well), interact, learn, grow. I am not defined by a single word, and I don't fit into a specific category. I am Kim. 

Everyone is different, just like finger prints no two are ever the same. But our differences can bring us together. I have formed solid bonds with people I have met through SGP. Bonds that will not easily be broken. I have found a comfort within the pages of their blog. Not just from their inspiring words or the fact that they are accomplishing exactly what I wish to accomplish, but from the countless others who stick around this little engine that could company. Thank you to everyone there, Team and Street Team. Each of you has inspired me in countless ways on a daily basis.

3 years ago I was in Orlando, FL hiding from my past. Little did I know that one day training on a nut wagon (yes the cinnamon almonds) I would meet my best friend. She broke down every wall that I had built up in my past. She got me to heal and move forward. Without her I would still be a half person, shutting out the world. I also would have never pursued this dream of mine if it weren't for her. She is my cheering squad. Whenever I doubt anything she is there to pick me up. Even though we don't live in the same time zone, we still are always there for each other and I wouldn't trade her for the world. So thank you Lindsay A. You are my rock.

My family has always been a big part of my life. I have always considered my mom a friend. We might not always get along and we would never be able to live in the same house again but she is someone that I know I can talk to. My dad is a rock. He is the quiet type but what he can't say in words he makes up for just by being there. My sister and I weren't always the best of friends growing up. But in college I got to connect with my sister. It made going to UCA worth it. I love my sister and want only the best things in life for her. She is more than just a sister to me. She is a friend. I will miss her and the rest of my family when I move but I know they will all be huge parts of my life no matter where I am or what I'm doing.

I haven't had an easy life, I haven't had a hard life. I've had a life. My life is changing as I write this because my future is changing. I am heading in a new direction and blazing my own trail. The obstacles I faced in the past have only made me strong today. I wouldn't be me without them so I don't regret any of them. I actually thank them for leading me here. I know more are coming and the rest of my life is not going to be a piece of cake but if I can face down all that I have, I know that nothing can stop me in the future. 

In 2 months and 5 days I turn 24. In 5 months I could be in a new state. In a year I could be making my movie. In 5 years I could have the career I am dreaming of. Or it could all end tomorrow. My faith will pull me through my future. It will help me everyday of the rest of my life. I know that I have helped others, that what I do and say and write have made a small difference in someone else's life. 

I am humbled by your comments. I am pleased that you read. I am in awe of the power of words. 

My life is just beginning and this is my journal. I do have a lot to say. I will continue to write here as long as people continue to read (and probably beyond) because I have never felt better than I do when I finally get all of my inner thoughts out of my head.

Thank you all and get ready for 100 more posts.

OTH Opening Credits

I don't know about you but I miss hearing Gavin DeGraw's "I Don't Want To Be" at the beginning of OTH. In honor of this I have complied a video of the opening credits from each of the seasons (excluding the current one because there isn't one). Enjoy the walk down memory lane.

Ok so the original posting that I did had a slight error in it. This is the real one. APRIL FOOLS!

Small Soap Box

Ok so something sparked inside of me while talking in the chat tonight. Welcome to my small soap box rant.

Does life always have to be neat and tidy and follow a set of rules or guidelines?

I don't think so. I think that life is messy, unorganized, chaotic, random, and never follows the rules. If it did we would all be living in 2 story houses with white picket fences and have 2.5 children. 

So why should you squash someone's vision to fit into something that you already know. What is wrong with being groundbreaking? If it weren't for someone taking a risk and trying something new we wouldn't have what we have today. They aren't cookie cutter copies of other things. No two people, companies, bands, TV shows, drinks, foods, anything are the same. They can't be handled the same either. You have to adjust your thinking for what you are dealing with.

SGP is breaking the mold. They are treading in territory never touched by a production company. They are reaching directly out to their fan base. Interacting with them, making a more personal connection to them. Before they shot a single frame of film on their movie they are having a dialogue with the people who will eventually make or break it. Because lets face it, you can make the best movie in the world but if you don't have people to go and see it then it is classified as a failure.

You are nothing without your fans in Hollywood. Ratings, box office numbers, $$$. That's what the suits live for. Fans can be some of the most passionate and out spoken people in the world. They share what they like, and share more what they dislike. They can have the power to get a show cancelled by not watching it, bring a show back from the edge of cancellation with their voices and they can change the entire direction that Hollywood aims their products.

As times change so do the fans and the studios. I think what SGP is doing is the future of Hollywood studios. People want to feel a connection to the things and people they see on the screen. Between Twitter, Facebook, Myspace you can see it slowly changing. But no one has tried this approach. No one has blogged and chatted, and shared with their fans. They are sharing their passion, their dreams, their business and they're doing it from the heart. That is what matters, do something you love because you love it. They don't have to share with us but they choose to. That is why they will succeed.

"To climb steep hills requires a slow pace at first." - Shakespeare

Why Entertainment?

Of all the careers I could have choose I picked one in one of the toughest industries to break into. But why did I choose this. I don't want the glitz and glamor of the celebrity of it. I don't want to be known world wide. I don't have to rich or overly successful either. 

So why this area, why this career?

I have always loved movies, music, TV, entertainment in general. I always made up stories in my head and acted them out. But I never thought of using that in my career. I wanted to play sports, coach, teach, all of that other stuff.

But when I moved out of my house and went to college nothing seemed to fit. I didn't like any of my classes. I didn't really want to spend the rest of my life stuck in a classroom or gym. Then I was just going to go into business, just general business as to not tie myself down. But then I didn't like being stuck in an office. During this period I had babbled in writing screenplays and making short films/documentaries of my life. I never thought of this as a career still tho.

Then I got back from living in Florida and one of my ex-boyfriends was going to a school called Full Sail University. I looked into the school and thought it sounded interesting. After having worked at the local movie theater, being interested in how the film was made and sent to us, and how we put it all together in the end, film school appealed to me. Then I starting researching careers and doing some soul searching. It all clicked and I was hooked. I wanted nothing more than to make movies or TV shows. To write, shoot, direct, find locations, get funding, everything. I had it all planned out in my head. But then the recession hit and my plans had to change again.

It was not feasible for me to move to FL and go to school. But then the opportunity to learn the business side of things presented itself and it made since. I want to be able to be an independent filmmaker or start my own production company. I want to be able to know what I'm doing on the business side of things. I have connections to learn the actual production side and would rather try to get real world experience with that. So it worked out.

But what about my original question. Why the entertainment world? 

There is no easy answer to that question. And I wonder if you asked anyone in the industry if they could give you and simple answer either. I want to inspire, but there are many ways to do this. I want to entertain, but again there are many ways to do that. So why?

Because I have so many stories to tell, or help tell. Because I see things and can see what they could look on a bigger scale. Because I talk to someone and want to tell their story to the world. Because I want to be apart of the magic that has touched my life. I know what a story, or an actor/actress, a piece of music, a location, the way something is shoot can change your life. I want to do that. I want to change lives, or if not then just make them a little bit better for an extended period of time. 

I want to entertain. To much of the world these days is doom and gloom. The news saves the happy stories for the end, and leaves all the bad at first. We are surrounded by the bad. I want to bring back the good into someone's life, even if it's briefly. I want to make their day just a little brighter. That is what I want to do. I was born to entertain, but not as me, as the characters I create and display.

Once When I Was Little

Here is my embarrassing childhood videos. I am looking into ways of converting more of these because this was actually a pretty fun project. Now please remember that I was 11, it was the 90's and there is no accounting for my fashion (or anyone else's for that matter). Enjoy.